I am sick of making excuses. I am sick of not feeling good enough. I am sick and tired of feeling sorry for myself, for something that is no one's fault but my own. I am just a girl, on a journey, searching for happiness.

SW:190
height: 5'8
GW1:150
GW2:135
UGW:120

Rewards:
180- start using all of the tanning passes I have. Not to end up all fake-bakey, but just not quite so pale.
170- get schwasty-faced. no one likes a large messy drunk; however, this is college. i'm not denying myself forever.
160- new Ugg boots (should be just in time for really cold weather)
150- hair cut, cut off whatever's left of the old hair dye (about 4-5 inches)
140- TOMS (probably white, so I can decorate them)
130- new, quality makeup
120- dye hair (either really blonde, or legitimately brunette, since I'm always somewhere in between) • Just Ask

I ate so horribly today. I was doing fine until dinner, which I just shouldn’t have even eaten. but we had mac and cheese which is a HUGE weakness for me. And then I had to go shopping for halloween costumes but that was a huge fail because obvious nothing’s going to look good on me so I am just not dressing up this year. I’m going home for the weekend and I’ll just have to do better. I cannot gain back the five pounds I’ve lost, I can’t.

1:12 am • 29 October 2010